A Lazy Sunday

After such a busy week, the boys and I are just hanging around today. It is so nice to not have anything that HAS to be done for a change. Being busy is definitely the best thing to try to keep my mind off you. Somehow though, even in the middle of complete chaos, I always seem to have you on my mind. I was so disappointed that I missed your call last night. I was really hoping that you would have called my cell. I waited up until 3:30am but you must have gone to bed. Hopefully I will hear from you today. I went to the FRG meeting yesterday. I have to honestly say that most times I leave there completely pissed off. Yesterday was good though. We talked briefly about homecoming plans and it was nice to see that there is light at the end of this tunnel. They tried to make it clear that when you arrive at the MOB station, families will be discouraged about visiting...Unfortunately, I didn't hear that so I will be there! I am tired of the Army telling me what we can and can't do. As far as I am concerned, they took you away from us for 11 months so far with at least 5 more to go. The second you arrive in the US...I am going to be there whether they like it or not. The thing that really gets me is the people that make all these rules are in the rear detachment. They go home to their wives and kids everynight because they are stationed locally. They can kiss my ass if they think I am spending one minute longer away from you then what is necessary. Obviously their 3 year olds don't cry everynight wondering why daddy is still an "Army Guy". They don't have to answer the questions day in and day out of why daddy left us. They don't have to deal with the fear of you never returning. They are clueless as far as I am concerned of what it is really like to be put on active duty and torn away from everyone that you love. Well baby...enough bitching for today. You know how I feel about you but I will tell you again anyway. I love you more than anything and can't wait until we can put this all behind us.

Back in the routine

It has been a while since I last posted...being negative doesn't help anyone so I decided to stay quiet for a bit until my thoughts were clear. It is amazing to me that this time was so hard. I guess I truly didn't realise how much I miss you. Every day I would go about my business and just hang in there...After you left again, It felt like a death. I was in total mourning. I am ok now and the boys and I have established our routine again. For all the wives out there that just can't imagine 1 more day with out him...It does get easier. I am so looking foward to this thing being over. I have never appreciated you more. I can dream right now of your return but before you know it...it will be a reality, 5 more months, and you will be back where you belong...home with me and the boys. I love you baby!