Just waiting...

I can't believe that in a couple of days I will see you again. I will finally get that hug that I have been waiting so long for. I hope this R&R is everything that you have dreamt it would be. The boys and I are dying to see you. I can't wait for your phone call to let me know when your landing. We will be there waiting no matter how long it takes. Have a safe trip and know how much we love you. Until then...

Your coming home to me

Just when I think I can't survive another month without seeing you, you let me know that your coming home on leave. I always hoped to hear that but didn't want to be disappointed. You'll be back in my arms in just a couple weeks. I can't wait for the moment I see you. Hopefully that moment will replace the vision of the day you left.

We are half way home...

272 days ago you packed your bags and went to the mob station. That day will forever be imbedded in my head. So many times I have closed my eyes and can feel that last kiss you gave me. With tears rolling down my cheeks I drove away with such an empty feeling. Would I see you again? Will you come home the same man I married? The boys and I stood on the street corner, holding our signs, waiting for your convoy to pass. The anticipation for this moment was overwhelming. Then you came...driving by with a big smile and a wave. As much as I didn't want you to go, I knew that you'd be OK. We now have 275 days left. We are almost half way there. I know we can make it. Every morning your the first thing that comes to my mind and as I fall asleep at night I have a picture of you in my head. Stay safe my love...

I had to post this poem I found

A SOLIDER'S WIFE
I am asked everyday by people who care about me what it is like to be a solider's wife.
There is no easy answer to that question because unless you are one of us you can not fathom what we deal with every second of every day.
Close your eyes and imagine a nightmare so terrifing you can not breathe......and you can't wake up
Imagine a world where your best friend is in danger.......and you can't help them
Imagine being afraid to leave your telephone.....because it is your life line to sanity
Imagine sitting in a small room watching a computer screen...as you pray today he will be able to come on line
Imagine turning on a radio and hearing about bombings and deaths and no knowing where your husband is today
Imagine going for days and weeks with no communication as sometimes they just can not get to a telephone
Imagine hearing your husband's voice and you hearing the fear as he tells you he is about to convoy through a war torn country
Imagine waking up everyday knowing that there is no end in sight...
Imagine a Christmas morning where your child is concerned as to whether or not Santa can find daddy at "work"
Imagine the very best part of yourself is gone and you don't know where it went or if it is coming back
Imagine waking up in a warm house house and knowing that your soul mate is sleeping in a metal box
Imagine having no where to go to find peace and quite
Imagine praying for nothing more then the safe return of you true love
Imagine not being in control of your own life as your world is suddenly subject to a war
Imagine not being clear on why we are still in conflict yet knowing you can lose everything at somone elses whim
Imagine losing your day to day life and the world you once knew.....
Imagine a home that was once full of laughter and love suddenly darkened by tears and grief
I am a hostage of terrorist activity......
I am captive to fear and loneliness...
I am a victim of war...
I am a solider's wife.......

My thoughts for the day

It has been 5 months since I have seen you. I am thankful we had that time before you went overseas. So much has happened since you have left. We have a new house. The baby is talking now. The older boys have gained so much independence and I am just waiting. I feel like life is on hold. I didn't realize how much I would truly miss you. I knew it would be hard without you here but hoped I would adjust. I miss the laughs, the company, and your stupid sense of humor. All the things that drove me crazy, I long for right now. I am very proud of what your doing and support you 100%. Please know that I love you and even though this is very difficult, I am proud to be your wife.